In this solo episode, I reflect on thirty-six consecutive weeks of podcasting—including recording during hospitalization and a long physical healing journey—and share why I’m taking a short, intentional pause. I speak about intuition, devotion versus productivity, divine partnership, and how my work as a Transition Doula informs the way I’m holding this moment.
In this episode, I explore:
What consistency looks like when it’s rooted in devotion, not extraction
Recording and publishing while hospitalized with necrotizing fasciitis
How intuition has shaped my work, relationships, and healing
Why availability—not effort—is the foundation of divine partnership
Serving as my own Transition Doula during a major life threshold
Why pausing can be an act of care, not disappearance
🎵 Music credit:
Intro and outro music: Madre Ayahuasca by Arkawa
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🌐 And as always, visit www.goddessintraining.online for more tools to support your intuitive journey.
Marinating in What Arrived
There are moments in life when movement stops being the medicine.
When the next step isn’t action, articulation, or translation—but presence.
This solo episode marks one of those moments for me.
Over the past thirty-six weeks, Goddess in Training has been a steady companion through profound change. I recorded through joy and momentum, but also through fear, grief, illness, and recovery. I released episodes while hospitalized in Costa Rica with necrotizing fasciitis, and I continued through a long physical healing journey that reshaped my relationship to my body, my work, and my capacity.
What became clear during that time was this:
this podcast wasn’t surviving because it was “content.”
It was surviving because it was connection.
It kept me oriented to meaning when so much else fell away.
Looking back now, I can see how many of the conversations I hosted were quietly preparing me for the life I was stepping into.
Conversations about intuition and purpose in work. About burnout in mission-driven roles. About choosing alignment over prestige. About building lives—and businesses—that honor ease, nervous system health, and seasonality rather than constant striving.
Alongside those were conversations about embodiment and remembering. About untamed truth. About wildness as honesty, not chaos. About womb wisdom, cyclical knowing, land, place, and the intelligence of the body that so many of us were taught to ignore.
And woven through it all were the healers—each one reminding me that healing isn’t a destination, but a relationship. One that asks for humility, patience, and trust in timing.
When I say Goddess in Training, I don’t mean someone chasing perfection or arrival. I mean someone in relationship with becoming. Someone willing to listen. Every guest who has joined me here embodies that in their own way. And if you’re reading this, you do too.
At the same time as all of this was unfolding publicly, something quieter was happening in my personal life.
For a long time, I spoke about divine partnership as a process, not a prize. As something you don’t chase, but become available for. I talked about safety, resonance, and the importance of staying with yourself rather than performing readiness.
What I didn’t fully realize was that I was practicing this in real time.
After my divorce, there was a period where I processed everything out loud—on dates, in conversations, anywhere there was a listener. Eventually I understood that while some of that was healing, it was also a sign that I wasn’t fully available yet.
Availability isn’t about wanting something.
It’s about inhabiting your life without narrating it.
It’s about letting the body catch up to the story.
For me, daily meditation became the doorway back into that kind of presence. Sitting long enough to feel what safety actually felt like, rather than theorizing about it. Listening without immediately translating.
And from that place, things changed.
Not through effort or strategy—but through discernment. Through becoming unavailable to dynamics that required self-abandonment. Through trusting quiet no’s as much as exciting yes’s.
That’s when partnership arrived—not as a disruption, but as a deepening. Not as intensity, but as relief. As spaciousness. As a nervous system exhale.
Which brings me to this pause.
As a Transition Doula, I often tell clients that thresholds aren’t meant to be rushed. That integration matters as much as insight. That the body needs time to receive what the mind may already understand.
Right now, I’m serving as my own doula.
I’m practicing what I would offer anyone I work with:
don’t rush to explain.
don’t extract meaning too quickly.
protect the tenderness.
honor the pause.
So I’m taking two, maybe three weeks away from releasing new podcast episodes. Not as a disappearance—but as a holding.
During this time, I’ll be sharing a couple of curated reflections here on Substack—threading together past conversations around shared themes and offering gentle entry points into the archive.
This podcast was never meant to be consumed linearly. There is no correct starting point. These conversations are meant to be entered the way intuition works: non-linear, responsive, alive.
Trust what calls to you.
I’ll return soon—not refreshed in the productivity sense, but rooted. More embodied. More inside my life.
Sometimes the most powerful practice is staying with what has arrived—without rushing to explain it.
